Even though

Its almost time for the sun to come up and even though I have a stack of notes in front me to study, I need to pen (type) my thoughts down.

The semester is coming to an end, and I can't help but think what will happen to me in the semesters to come. This semester has been such an eye opener to me.

I have learnt lessons I probably would have been better off not having to have learnt.

I have met so many new people that I love to death. Its funny that, it took me so little time to warm up to them and yet, it feels like I have known them my entire life. I have never experienced anything like this. And this is what makes me so scared.

When they leave, what will happen to me? Already, one of them will be leaving at the end of the semester.

What will happen to me when I return from summer. Life without people like them can make it unbearable, I know that. And then in the semester after that, a couple more will be leaving.

What happens to us? That weird bond that formed so strongly within such a short period of time.

Breakage? - That will possibly be the easiest thing to do. Heartbreaking in the beginning, but easier as life goes on. Am I really able to forget though? These times, are the best times of my life.

Continuity? - But how? Physical distance is always a problem. Talk on Skype? Nothing can beat a face to face.

All these questions cloud my mind, my thoughts. I cannot concentrate for fear of the future.

This fear, its terrible. I have never feared like I have right now. Even before I moved here, I didn't fear. All I had at that time was excitement.

So much things to think about..before I go to bed, after I wake up, when I am studying, when I eat.

What will really happen. Only time will tell. And time is what I am so afraid of.